On Wednesday..

I was rushing to finish my Add Maths Exclusive A tuition homework..

(MUST DO!!! If not then Mr. Wong will KILL me!!!)

I spent about 3 hours trying to finish it * I didn't even have time to do school hw*

When it was 7.45 pm, I headed off to Exclusive A..

Upon my LATE arrival at 8.05pm.. 

there was a HUGE THRONG of people at the front of the door!!!

YUP.. what happened??

There was a power failure 0.ooooooo

So everyone was leaving..

Then, I had to go for Wednesday Prayer Meeting lorrr..

At that time I was like *oh no! my 3 hours of hard work lehhh..*

So.. At the prayer meeting..

Was not very exciting..

However, I knew that HE had a reason for everything

Probably.. HE wanted to say something to me 

So... what I RECEIVED was not from the sharing..

BUT from Jie Jie Eunice during the "group prayer"

It was a reminder that:

"We are in the world.. BUT not of the world"

The time we spend in our studies, entertainment.. etc

We must spend just the same amount of time with HIM

The end times are near...

In this week's American Idol..

I expected maybe Aaron Kelly or Casey James to be out (not offending anyone)

However during the whole performance yesterday... Casey was QUITE good..

So I thought BYE to Aaron Kelly..

HOWEVER...

The America decided to keep him WOW 0.o

and guess who was out..??

BYE BYE SIOBHAN MAGNUS!

There are two sides to every story...

There are two sides to every story...

SmiLinG.. smiling... =P XDD

I have won a few competitions so far...

but the best one is still the HUNGER GAMES..

Lemmie tell you about the other competitions:

Since I was a Lambert fan..

I joined a competition to win HIS CD's..

Yeah,

and being so lucky BLESSED I won both of it..

American Idol Season 8

*last year's contestants were so much better*

*nods*

AND...

obviously a fan should have..

 FOR YOUR  MY ENTERTAINMENT !

Thanks to Red.fm..

I am able to get both CDs..

However the HUNGER GAMES is more meaningful to me..

*not talking about the storyline but the way I obtained it*

It was sent to me as a Symbol... ^.^

GOOD NEWS..  0.o 

"Rainbows are colourful, beautiful and mesmerising" 
♥

♥

♥

You know what the rainbow represents???

You only see the rainbow after a heavy rain..

It means HIS PROMISE to us... =P

The heavy rain can also be derived as our problems, worries etc.

However the rainbow means its all over ^.^ 

So... ALWAYS SMILE when you see a rainbow.. 

REMEMBER HIS PROMISES TO YOU!!

                                                                                                            

Yeah only one GOOD thing came out of the Hari Anugerah Cemerlang on Saturday..

That is HOLIDAY TODAY *26th April 2010* for all MUTIARANS only !!!!!!!!

WHEEEEEEEE....

I bet all of you agree right??!!! =P * thumbs up* ♥

·'★¸.·'★.·Thanks, my ANGEL'★¸.·'★

I've been thinking if angels really do exist..

Well I was taught that those immortal, beautiful, perfect creatures with two wings exist..

Each one of us has a guardian angel 

And he will always be there for us..

He will guide us in everything we do:

May it be in our hard or tough times..

Or may it be in our Exams??

Or in relationships..

Or even when you sleep...

HE watches over you!!!

I have just experienced a feeling that my angel was with me during the times of my difficulties...

On Friday after school *and after I felt better* I was on my way home

In the same blue car.. A girl asked me if angels do really exist..

I just told her what I knew..

Yes they do..

Everyone has a guardian angel with them

Why couldn't you see them??

I don't really know..

I have never seen one before in real life

But I do know of some people who have seen angels before

I have seen a photograph of them before too

*a real one in Peaceheaven*

Yes.. They do have wings..

Angels are perfect and beautiful creatures..

*Ahem.. both leng cai and leng lui*

HOWEVER...

There are fallen angels too...

How did this come about??

It was like this.. 

One of the most powerful angels named Lucifer became proud of himself.

He was very beautiful and proud.

There were many followers under him too.

One day, he decided to overthrow God and become ruler..

And so God punished him..

By sending him and all of his followers to A Fiery Pit (also known as Hell)

1/3 of the angels followed Lucifer (now also known as Satan)

Lucifer and his followers (demons/devils) now controls the world and tries to make mankind fall.

However..

Do not despair..

there are still 2/3 of the angels watching over us and protecting us!! =P

PS.. This is not a made-up story..

Okay.. So after talking to her the whole journey *saya tiba di rumah*

When I reached home  I received a package..

I had won two books from the Star Newspaper 

and didn't know about it..

UNTIL that day when I felt so down.

WHAT A COINCIDENCE??

No.. I don't think so..

It wasn't by coincidence that I won those gifts that day..

It was a blessing from HIM!! XDDD

These are the pics of what I received during Hari Anugerah Cemerlang today...

Lol?? "A Collar Button"

The yellow A4 paper

 

A flimsy "photo frame"

When one of my friends tore of the cello tape

Guess what happened??

*haha*

The black coloured part came out too.. LOLX.. So LG..

BTW what I have learned yesterday and today during the seminar by Dr. Rosie Leong was:

a) To not store up treasures on earth but in heaven

b) Even money is not everything to us when end times arrive *it may be of no use even*

c) HE will always provide for us our every need.. 

THANK YOU VERY MUCH! =P

PART 2 - Continues...
Oh you're waiting right *sorry*

yup so...

After I switched off the computer.. I was watching a show on TV

SUDDENLY!!! *DING DONG*

"Who's that?? I very bad mood liao still wan kacau me. I wan watch show lerrr!!!" I thought to myself

I saw a white delivery van * I think it was FedEX* 

Unwillingly, I opened the door and wanted to take in the goods that *I thought* my mother bought.

I noticed that the guy had a cacated finger when he asked me to sign a letter.

When I signed it, I noticed my name there and then he passed me a box lolz.. 

 

On the box was a letter *I tore it out* that stated it was for me.. 

I was astonished because I never ordered anything.

Guess what was inside??? 

Yup two story books BUT

they were not ordinary story books they were the HUNGER GAMES SERIES!

I was so glad that I was practically jumping up and down and "wheeee-ing"

YEAH!!!

Through these books I understood a new meaning.. 

HE was trying to comfort me..

HE is always there for me and has never left me..

HE understands what I've been through and has rewarded me with something better..

HE has shown that he is faithful and just.

That's why these books have GREAT VALUE to me!

It was so much better than getting the yellow A4 paper and flimsy "photo frame"

Two days ago...

I was told that I would receive 2 prizes.. 

Yup.. one was for No.3 Anugerah Cemerlang Keseluruhan Tingkatan 4  

*that's bad enough as I wasn't 3rd*

Another was for Anugerah Gred Purata Terbaik *GPA 1.0*

The second one was given to me to "shut me up" LOLZ!

Yesterday...

I was told last minute during the rehearsal that I only have one prize..

Even the other teachers were confused =.=" 

(Written on her paper it was stated that I was third and then some other teacher said it was a mistake)

*Sobs* At that time I was already quite heated up

BUT.. the next person to walk up the stage for rehearsal was......... ME! *shyt..*

Guess who I was going to shake hands with??

Who else?

 HER LORR....

the HEADMISTRESS!!!

Then when shaking hands she kept talking to me:

"Saya tahu kamu itu dapat semua A juga. Oleh sebab itu, saya adakan anugerah tambahan ini untuk kamu (Anugerah Gred Purata Terbaik). You try your best in SPM sahajalah...." and then bye bye.

Went I got back to my seat I was emo.. =) *haha*

Many people were like "what's wrong with her?".. they were curious (including Mr. Kiasu)

*Ahem* (not mentioning some immediately visited my blog to get news.. LOLX.. Anyway thanks to all of you for your concern, Especially.. my friends)

I kept to myself the until the whole rehearsal was better..
And I stopped tearing *physically* but inside me I was screaming out loud.

I became something like a zombie and kept brooding over the matter.

The reasons why I acted this way was:

1. They were fooling about with me and took me for granted. 

(one minute there's a prize and the next minute it's gone.. Like that then don't waste my time by getting my hopes high.. Straight away don't award me with anything lohz..)

2. They didn't inform me earlier by taking one prize away.. =.=" (I thought I had 2)

3. They wanted to cover up their mistakes at MY expense..

 SO when I went home.... 


 I immediately started blogging..
 then when I finished....

*continue later now busy*

Sleepwalker

Most of you would know what happened today..

I have nothing much to say.. *sobs* *speechless*

If you want to know how I felt...

It is all in this song SLEEPWALKER by Adam Lambert 
 * I can relate a lot to it*

The highlighted ones are my feelings mainly:

I saw a picture of you
Hanging in an empty hallway
I heard a voice that I knew
And I couldn't walk away
It took me back to the end
Of everything
I tasted all, I tasted all
The tears again

Outside the rain's fallin' down
There's not a drop that hits me
Scream at the sky but no sound
Is leavin' my lips
It's like I can't even feel
After the way you touched me
I'm not asleep but I'm not awake
After the way you loved me

I can't turn this around
I keep running into walls that I can't break down
I said I just wander around
With my eyes wide shut because of YOU
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker

Let me OUT of this dream

Everywhere that I go
I see another memory
And all the places we used to know
They're always there to haunt me
I walk around and I feel so lost and lonely
You're everything that I want
But you don't want me

I can't turn this around
I keep running into walls that I can't break down
I said I just wander around
With my eyes wide shut because of you
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker

Let me out of this dream, dream
Let me out of this dream


I can't turn this around
I keep running into walls that I can't break down
I said I just wander around
With my eyes wide shut because of you
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker
I'm a sleepwalker walker walker

LET ME OUT OF THIS DREAM!

The reason why I like Adam and his songs is because...

I am able to relate the lyrics to a lot of situations I am in..

LIKE NOW currently x.x

"Sorrow like a sharp sword will pierce your heart" Quoted from Luke 2:35
 

Sorry for being emo today..
To those that I avoided earlier in the school hall.. I'm sorry too..
My emotions were unstable then
*don't worry I feel better now..*
(I always feel better after blogging.. It's my new way of expressing myself)

Glambert's Money!

Weh.. Check this out!

*Only for Glambert fans*

Imagine if we are able to use this kind of notes..

My Minah-Rempit aka DAREDEVIL

Hmm.. Yeah this few days I've been having transport problem.

Mainly because of Extra Classes for SPM and *Oh Yeah* English debate..

()_+ So the lady or "auntie" who fetches me home is really pissed off by me *haha I'm getting on her nerves!

What to do?!

Try this: DO YOU RECOGNIZE MY DRIVER?

1. Some of you may know her as the reckless driver..

2. Others may recognize her as the lady with the blue saga that has millions of dents (yeah I'm exaggerating)..

3. Many too will call her the "Devil Queen of the Road" and avoid her

4. Did you notice a WSA 8373 blue Saga on the road today? Did that car almost knock you?

5. Have you seen a short lady in blue sweater and a flowery white hat running about SMK Seri Mutiara? 

*not to mention that she shouts about and grabs anyone in her way to ask questions*

6. Has she grabbed you before to question you anything?

7. Remember just avoid her.. For YOUR safety!

Yeah those are the 7 points to take note of..

Keep away from her if you do not want to get hurt/harmed

(sorry.. I seem overreact *haha*)

Yup, she made me wait for her up to 5.00pm yesterday 

(although my activities ended at 3.30pm)

Today she made me wait for another hour until 3.00pm 

(although extra classes ended at 3.00pm)

When she drove back she was SPEEDING, obviously to show me that I've pissed her off! 

*by making her fetch me another round after fetching the Form 3 and 4's

She's angry with me for wasting her time and petrol (although she was paid to do so)

That's why I hate staying back.. Don't blame me LOL!

.·'★¸.·'★AFTERMATH.·'★¸.·'★ by ADAM LAMBERT

Have you lost your way?
Livin' in the shadow of the messes that you made
And so it goes
Everything inside your circle starts to overflow
Take a step before you leap
Into the colours that you seek
You give back what you give away
So don't look back on yesterday

Wanna scream out
No more hiding
Don't be afraid of what's inside
Gonna tell ya you'll be alright
In the Aftermath
Anytime anybody pulls you down
Anytime anybody says you're not allowed
Just remember you are not alone
In the Aftermath

You feel the weight
Of lies and contradictions that you live with every day
It's not too late
Think of what could be if you rewrite the role you play
Take a step before you leap
Into the colours that you seek
You give back what you give away
So don't look back on yesterday

Wanna scream out
No more hiding
Don't be afraid of what's inside
Gonna tell ya you'll be alright
In the Aftermath
Anytime anybody pulls you down
Anytime anybody says you're not allowed
Just remember you are not alone
In the Aftermath
In the Aftermath

Before you break you have to shed your armor

Take a trip and fall into the Glitter
Tell a stranger that they're beautiful
So all you feel is love, love
All you feel is love, love

Wanna scream out
No more hiding
Don't be afraid of what's inside
Wanna tell you you'll be alright
In the Aftermath

Wanna scream out
No more hiding
Don't be afraid of what's inside
Gonna tell ya you'll be alright
In the Aftermath

Anytime anybody pulls you down
Anytime anybody says you're not allowed
Just remember you are not alone
In the Aftermath
In the Aftermath
Gonna tell ya you'll be alright
In the Aftermath
In the Aftermath
Just REMEMBER you are not alone
In the Aftermath

This is a great song by Adam Lambert which I can relate to a lot.
It has meaningful lyrics as well as great music and vocals *haha* (though some may disagree about the screaming..)
Well that's his trademark LOLZ! 
I have nothing much to say anyway..
So that's all for today! WHEEE..

Jumping For Joy ?! 0.o

You may ask me why I am so happy..

Yeah, WHY am I on cloud 9?

These are my 10 reasons:

1. I struck a lottery ticket!! Oh Yeah!! I won RM 999 (I know it isn't much for a lottery but still =P)

2. My previous complications were solved and I will be receiving all the prizes from school this coming Saturday on the 24^th of April.

3. A guy confessed his feelings for me?! LOL XP

4. Adam Lambert decided to come to MALAYSIA!! Wheeee...

5. I got free movie tickets to watch Shutter Island.. WOW

6. I got to see Adam Lambert on TV in American Idol this week ^.^

7. I was chosen to act in a short skit in my school play for Prize Giving Day this Saturday *YEAH I GOT THE STAR/MAIN ROLE*

8. I went out with the person I like to watch a movie.. 0.o

9. I got offered the ASEAN scholarship that I signed up

*don't get excited it's only for my Form 5 and College education*

10. I aced my SPM diagnostic test with straight A's

*haha not straight A+ la, A and A+ both, I'm not that pro.. not yet anyway*

FINALLY..

The real reason WHY I am so happy is that I tried my best today and with the help of my other group members I managed to carry out a satisfactory program today..

Hope all of you who attended YPF enjoyed the time of quiz and hilarious skits today!

Special thanks to:

a) all my CZ members, Tirzah, Ruhwey and Rachel, for all your hard work

b) all YPFers who participated today.. You made things work out! We had great fun!

c) Joynn and Alvin for all your advices

d) Last but not the least, thanks to HIM!

YUP THE OTHER MAIN REASON WHY I AM SO GLAD IS....

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SUSPENSE

YIKES

Don't

Kill

me...

I

was

just

fooling you!

*wahahahaha..

Lol.. All those 10 weren't true except for number 6..

*haha* that's why I am happy I managed to fool you.. LOLZ

Anyway I hope the rest was true as well but at least number 6 was..

Most of all I enjoyed the teamwork that was present when we portrayed our roles in the skit based on the book of Esther..

American Idol

YEAH I LOVE AMERICAN IDOL!!
*mostly because of this week*

There were many great performances this week..
It was Elvis week.. *Meaning = many great songs*

These are my favourite for this week:

1. Crystal Bowersox – Saved

2. Lee DeWyze – A Little Less Conversation

3. Tim Urban – Can’t Help Falling In Love

4. Michael Lynche – In The Ghetto


HOWEVER... My favourite contestant for now is currently *drum rolls*

LEE DEWYZE

Unfortunately..that isn't the main reason why I love this week..

What made me sit there at the show for two hours straight..

was the fact that..

there was a great singer..

and that person is currently..

MY FAVOURITE !

He is none other than the..

1. Greatest contestant that showed up during the whole American Idol show

2. Mentor of this Elvis week

3. The perfect and super special performer (although he's theatrical)

4. Cool Guy with eyeliner

5. Guy with exotic fashion sense

6. The person who performed under green lasers and smoke in Results Show of 9 to 7
(it was definitely a superb, outstanding performance. He out-shined EVERYONE!!

7. The person who brought life to the American Idol show
(not only this week, BUT the whole season 8 as well)

8. the reason why I continue watching this show up till today
(although it is getting very boring because of lack of talent)

9. He's "leng chai".. *Although gay*

10. HE IS THE ONE AND ONLY..

ADAM LAMBERT *woots*

GO GLAMBERT!!

YeAh I'm a CRAZY fan of LAMBERT..

I savoured every bit of his remix version of
WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME in the show..

I admit I'm heels over head about him!!

^.^

Smoked and Burnt Message

Hey guess what? *it isn't good news*

Oh no, well those things in school can't be changed.. I gave up on it today since all slips have already been given out to students receiving prizes..

I wrote this whole letter and planned to send it in but well my parents decided to intervene and I put off this letter of mine..

here it is.. *the unsent emotional letter*

Kepada: Pengetua SMK Seri Mutiara 14hb April 2010


Puan,

Aduan Tentang Cara Penetapan Nama Penerima Hadiah

Dengan segala hormatnya saya ingin membuat aduan tentang cara penetapan nama penerima hadiah. Saya telah meluangkan masa untuk menaip warkah ini disebabkan beberapa perkara yang kurang saya fahami dan saya juga ingin menjernihkan segala salah faham.

2.Pertama sekali, saya tidak berapa jelas tentang nama beberapa orang pelajar yang telah disenaraikan sebagai penerima hadiah untuk tempat pertama, kedua dan ketiga dalam kelas dan juga keseluruhan tingkatan. Namun demikian, sebagaimana yang saya fahami mereka yang tersenarai bukanlah orang yang sepatutnya. Slip keputusan peperiksaan akhir tahun lepas pula menunjukkan nama orang yang berbeza. Lebih-lebih lagi, slip kedudukan dalam keseluruhan yang dilekatkan dekat dengan foyer juga berbeza dengan senarai pelajar yang bakal menerima hadiah. Ini agak mengelirukan untuk pelajar yang namanya tidak tersenarai untuk menerima hadiah sedangkan mereka sepatutnya mendapat tempat pertama atau kedua.

3.Selain itu, saya juga tidak berapa faham tentang format baru yang diperkenalkan. Saya pernah berjumpa dengan beberapa orang guru dan mereka memberitahu saya yang pelajar yang mendapat bilangan A yang lebih, layak menerima hadiah, tidak kira A1 atau A2. Ini tidak begitu adil untuk pelajar yang tidak mengambil mata pelajaran Bahasa Cina, sedangkan mereka mengambil mata pelajaran yang lain di luar seperti Prinsip Perakaunan. Semangat mereka terjejas disebabkan perkara ini dan mereka berasa tidak puas hati.

4.Selain itu, saya juga ingin bertanya tentang gred A1 dan A2 yang manakah lebih baik? Tambahan pula, antara keputusan pelajar yang mendapat 11 A1 dengan pelajar yang mendapat keputusan 10A1 dan 2 A2 yang manakah lebih layak? Sebenarnya, saya bukan hendak memandang rendah pada orang lain ataupun meninggikan diri. Saya hanya hendak menjelaskan perkara tersebut yang terpendam dalam hati saya kerana beberapa orang pelajar yang lain juga berpendapat demikian.

5.Memandangkan perkara ini agak mengelirukan dan juga kurang adil. Kami ingin mencadangkan supaya pihak puan dapat berpandukan gred purata untuk menetapkan penerima hadiah. Puan juga boleh mengadili perkara ini dengan menggunakan bilangan A1 dan A2 ataupun menggunakan peratus. Selain itu, pihak puan juga boleh merujuk kepada slip peperiksaan akhir tahun untuk mengadili perkara ini.



6.Justeru, saya menaruh harapan dan keyakinan yang penuh bahawa pihak puan yang bijaksana, adil serta saksama dapat menjelaskan perkara ini kepada kami. Saya juga ingin mengucapkan ribuan terima kasih kepada pihak puan kerana sudi meluangkan masa walaupun amat sibuk, untuk membaca warkah ini. Saya juga meminta ampun sekiranya ketelajuran kata atau jika saya telah bersikap keterlaluan terhadap pihak puan.


Sekian, terima kasih

Yang benar,




________________________
(BEATRIX TAN HWEI ERN)
Tingkatan 5 Sains 1

yeah.. this is the emo letter.. That's why they prevented me from sending it in..

I conclude by saying that HE wanted to put me through this test.
HE wanted me to learn to rid my pride and also my selfishness..
The lesson HE wanted me to learn was humility..
I ought to be humble and teachable..
To be moulded by HIM to become a better person..
To be changed and be in HIS likeness
So that I may be a vessel for HIM and to be used by HIM.. yup.. THAT'S IT!

BE POSITIVE!

Messed

Get OVER with it I keep telling myself.. * however I can't stop brooding over it*

Today nothing much occurred in school.
Just receiving back the results from Diagnostic Test SPM..
However it was a great day of spending time with other classmates..
*I was a little overboard (talked too much crap.. that's what Meighalah said) haha*

Tomorrow will be the day where all Form 5 students will have to sit through a full day of ongoing lectures on our further education.. College.. Uni.. etc..
*Phew* at least I wouldn't need to sit through classes.

Have you ever heard about the saying life's not fair.. Well I believe its true.


about the matter.. I guess I would just have to let go.. It isn't my capability to do anything about it.. I do feel upset about it. ESPECIALLY WITH THE HEADMISTRESS and her character is so annoying..

However my conclusion is NOT to take action but prove my worth NEXT time..
WATCH ME!!!

MY RIGHTS ARE MINE!!!

#%#$*@#!$%*&#

SHEESHHHH!!!!!!!!

I am really, totally pissed of by my school and the way they run it!!!

Let me ask you this question..

If you were supposed to receive RM100 because you won a competition and it was promised to you, would you fight for it even after they have decided to give it to someone else?
They told you to give in and try another time. You've won it but would you let it go?

Similarly.. I WAS TOTALLY PISSED OFF (and so were a few others)

It was like this..
I was first in class (4 Science 1) and in the whole form 4 last year, my percentage was 86% and I got straight A1's (11 A1s).

However I was informed today that I was no longer the top and I would no longer receive any prize on prize-giving day. *Imagine how taken aback was I*

At first, I decided to overlook it and calm myself down. However, my human feelings got the better of me and I decided to take action.

I met up with the teachers in charge. What angered me was their attitude..
They asked me to try during SPM and prove my worth then..

WHAT ABOUT THE TRIAL EXAM THEN?? WOULD YOU REPEAT THIS INCIDENT??
WHAT ABOUT THIS MATTER?? I thought to myself..

She wanted us to overlook it.. WTH #*%$#$#&# (sorry)

They said that others had more A's than I did (although their percentage were lower). They all had 12A's but it wasn't straight A1's there were A2's as well.

Because of this I couldn't even get top three in class. LOL! So ironic.. They typed my name down and pasted in on the notice board as top in form last year, but now I'm not even top in my own class. How could they do such a thing? They have stripped me of my own rights!

I would not just sit down and keep my mouth sealed as if nothing had happened..
I will definitely fight for my worth and my rights..

However, I am torn in two..
I was taught not to allow anger to take control of me and be angered over a matter until the sun sets..
*Translation: I have to forget about this matter when night arrives and leave it to HIM to solve it for me*